"Sweet Baby" 2.16.06

I have never shared this letter that I wrote to "Sweet Baby~2.16.06" back on 1.27.09. I ran across it again today as I was "nesting" by getting Mathen's baby book completed. For some reason I feel like I need to share this letter so here is goes.

My Dearest Baby,

I came across some items today that reminded me of you. They were bracelets given to me by the hospital the day you were taken from me. Words can't express the ultimate sadness and emptiness I felt that day. Your Dad was so great and strong for me but deep down his heart was broken for you as well. God only knows why you were only to live ten short weeks in my womb. Some say you weren't a fetus yet but Mommy & Daddy knew from the beginning how special you were, you were our baby. When we heard your first heartbeats our hearts soared. When the day came for us to hear you heartbeats again, there was silence, our hearts sank. God needed you with Him and we may never know why. We do know that a day doesn't go by without thinking about you. We love you! I love you! One day you and I will meet and my eyes shall fill with tears because I will be with my baby again.

God, thank you for keeping my baby safe in your arms until the time comes for us to reunite.

Love always, Mommy

I can't find the pic of Sweet Baby at this moment so I can't show you my little peanut.


It does get easier but there are many days where a thought pops into my mind, or a memory and I get teary eyed or just need to cry for a moment.

Thanks for letting me share!