Thank You LORD for CHANGE

WOW!! My whole body literally just got stomped on during today's lesson from Beth Moore's "A Women's Heart; God's Dwelling Place." Going into today's lesson, I could barely even pray. I just kept saying, "LORD," over and over and finally said, "Show me what you want me to hear today." My heart has been heavy for many reasons this week and I am thankful for being apart of this study because on a daily basis it opens my eyes.

The lessons so far have been over Genesis (Adam, Eve, Noah, Abraham) and now Exodus (Moses and the Israelites ). Currently, the Israelites are being led through the wilderness (Exodus 15:22-16:8) and they keep complaining. They are thirsty and God gives them water; it is bitter; God is leading them to the Promise Land; they are hungry; God gives them manna; they want meat. This whole time the Israelites are grumbling on about how much better Egypt was (plenty of food, water, etc.) even though they were slaves.

THIS IS WHAT STOMPED ALL OVER ME...Beth Moore asks a question, "How often do we stomp our feet at God after HE has delivered us from the things of this world and say, "I want some of it back"?" The Israelites wanted both the riches of God and the perks of Egypt...this immediately hit me as Omaha vs Snyder. Rick and I had been praying diligently for God to move us where He wanted us because we knew our time in Snyder was coming to an end, BUT, neither of us wanted to leave our friends (family) and our church.

God opened doors to Omaha: he opened Rick's parents house to accommodate us (even the coming addition); Rick has a head volleyball position and a salary staff position (not uncommon for coaches to just coach and work somewhere else); I am still able to stay at home with Mathen; bills are paid and literally EVERYTHING is taken care of because of GOD and Him working in us and others! So, what is my deal...I miss my friends (who most were/are still pregnant) and I miss the opportunities to be with them; I miss my church family and singing in the choir; I miss Mathen being able to play with his "little buddies" and I miss my house with my things. Do you see what I see???

I (we) have been delivered to Omaha by the grace of God and I am still grumbling over things that I think I need. GOD HAS PROVIDED in so many ways and trust me I am very grateful but is my gratefulness null and void due to my grumbling?? I have always thought of myself as a happy and content person and then an answered prayer takes place and I find myself thinking negative thoughts towards what God has given to me on a daily basis.

I am so thankful that God's timing is perfect and that I am in the process of going through this Beth Moore study. Like I mentioned in an earlier post, I am ready to see what God has in store for me. God brings us through the Marah (place where the Israelites found water but it was bitter) to Elim (place where there was 12 springs and 70 palm trees). Sometimes we go through something we see as a "hard time" so we can experience joy and be grateful for what God has given us.